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Happy Spring Equinox!

As I write this, it’s the first day of spring. There’s an Ostara celebration this weekend, things are coming up in the garden, and the crows have returned from their winter perambulations. Happy spring equinox!

Sadly, I probably won’t be able to make it to the big ritual and feast this weekend — it’s a bit of a hike for my Handsome Assistant and me, and it’s been a rough week. (He’s had stress from his not-being-my-assistant-job, I started my meds for my seasonal allergic asthma again, and we’re both tired of the constant stress of the news cycle. We’re pretty much wiped out and a long drive, sadly, probably isn’t in the cards.)

All that aside, I’m excited about the changes I’m seeing in the garden. I’m going to go through and do a bit of a bigger inventory soon, but, for now, I’ve been noticing buds on the persimmon, apple, and plum trees, the return of the raspberries, buds on the roses and blueberries, and new growth in the yarrow and sage plants. The tulips and daffodils I planted are also returning, and they’re looking really good so far.

Unfortunately, there’s some bad news. The big maple tree seems to be infested with a native species of oak borer. It’s dropping more limbs at an accelerated rate, and there are tons of larvae under the bark. (The woodpeckers, on the other hand, think this is a wonderful development.) The trouble is, even assuming the tree isn’t too far gone to be saved, the treatment of choice is injection with a neonicotinoid pesticide. Neonicotinoids are controversial, and for good reason — while they’re very effective, they’re also nonspecific and terrible for non-target species. They’re notorious for killing bees, but bees aren’t the only ones that they harm. As much as I want to save this tree, I can’t do it at the expense of the insects that I’ve been working so hard to attract, feed, and shelter here. We’re losing too many bugs as it is.

Close-up of a maple leaf.

Since this is a native species of borer, the fact that an infestation has progressed like this so quickly means that there’s an underlying problem. Treatment with pesticide would, therefore, be a bandaid solution at best. I don’t know how old this tree is, just that it’s mature. I know that the yard is (still, mostly) immature, hard, heavy clay soil, stemming from years of cultivating turf grass. We haven’t lived here that long, and I don’t know all of the stressors that the tree has experienced. I only know what it’s told me and what I’ve witnessed in the brief period of its rapid decline. I really, really don’t want to lose it, but I don’t know what to do that wouldn’t just be a temporary solution that would end up making so many other things worse. It’s a sucky situation to be in for everyone — and everything — involved.

Plus… As annoyed with them as I am, the native borers belong here, too. Unlike invasive borer species, they evolved to have a place in the local environment and are a food source for several important species of parasitoid insects and insect-eating birds. They wouldn’t even be a problem if there weren’t something else already wrong.

The spring equinox is a balance point. The word “equinox” means “equal night,” and stems from the fact that this is the time when the length of daylight and night hours is equal. From now until the autumnal equinox, the daylight hours will continue to lengthen.

Balance means taking the good with the bad. It’s life and death. It’s the decay of autumn’s leaves that feed the soil and make way for new growth. As much as I don’t want to lose this tree, I know the end might be coming and I’m grateful for all it’s done in its life.

Things leave, things return, and new things arise. The important thing is not to dwell on the loss, but to build on it and sow the seeds of things to come.

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Caring for crows in a time of avian flu.

It’s the time of year when my crow bros — Magni, Ruff, Boink, Muse, Peanut, and company — typically come back. They’ll be around until the starlings fledge, then usually disappear with the rest of their murder over the winter. I love them dearly and I’m excited to have them, but it’s an excitement that’s tinged with worry for one reason: H5N1, the virus responsible for avian flu.

There’s avian flu in my county. It was found in a backyard flock of chickens. (Perhaps coincidentally, the neighbor’s roosters have been unusually silent.)

While news stories have primarily focused on pet and livestock birds, wild bird populations are also potential reservoirs for the disease. While you’re not going to get it from hiking or bird watching, it’s a significant concern if you’re one of the many people who maintain bird feeders.

My yard is, for the most part, optimized for feeding songbirds on its own. I leave the seed heads on things for the finches to pick at, and I’ve deliberately planted hip roses and beautyberries to provide some autumn and winter food. The platform feeders I have are pretty much just for crows, and two distinct families of crows, at that. One of them is Magni’s bunch, the other is a family that was displaced during some construction downtown. There are a few reasons why I want to keep them attracted here:

  1. I’d rather they hang around here, where food and water are easy to get, than go hassle my neighbors that have backyard fowl. Also,
  2. They keep the rodents away.

“But,” you might be saying right now, “If you don’t put food out, rodents won’t come!”
Ha, I say. Ha ha, even. You would think that, but as long as there’s a water source and anything resembling food, the rodents will come. That means bugs. Any fruit-, vegetable-, or grain-bearing plants. Particularly attractive pieces of cardboard. In short, as long as I grow anything other than grass, something’s gonna come try to eat it. Since I am legitimately terrified of hantavirus, I want as many natural allies against uninvited rodentia as possible.

So, there are some steps I’m taking to keep myself, the crows, and others safer from avian flu. This shouldn’t be taken as advice, but as an assurance that all of these little weirdoes that I write about seem healthy, and that I’m doing the best I can to keep them so.

I’m:

Being selective.

Regular wild bird seed mixes are intended to attract a variety of birds to one’s yard. Experts recommend against this for multiple reasons, chief among them that it encourages multiple groups and species to congregate in one spot. This makes it easier to transmit diseases like avian flu between bird populations that otherwise wouldn’t interact.

A murmuration of starlings.

Fortunately, in this situation, I’m not trying to attract multiple species of birds. Much the opposite, really. While the front yard is planted in a way that wild birds can come pick at things as they please, the two platform feeders I maintain are pretty much exclusively for Magni’s crew and the other crow family. This means that I can put out food that they’ll want, but is unappealing to the starlings, juncos, cardinals, finches, and sparrows that usually pass through here. In other words, I’m discouraging congregation by focusing entirely on two small family groups of birds that already forage together.

Being nosy.

I don’t want to keep food out for long periods of time because, even if the food I put out isn’t appealing to smaller birds, they’ll still come up and pick through it to see if there’s anything edible.

I’ve been nosy, so I’ve noticed that Magni’s group and the other family typically come through here at two distinct times of day. Now, those are the only times I put food out. Once it’s gone (and it never lasts long), it’s gone. There aren’t any leftovers for anyone else to come dig through. Whatever they don’t eat, Todd, Freddie, and the other squirrels clean up in short order.

Sanitizing.

A pair of crows at a platform feeder. The larger of the two is eating, while the smaller one looks on.

The platform feeders are basic wire mesh, which is nice. Any dust or water falls right through, so things stay pretty neat in the feeders themselves. Nonetheless, this doesn’t mean that they’re germ-free.

Each one gets a regular soak in a diluted bleach solution. I know, I’m usually all about making my own cleaners and using vinegar on everything, but I’m not going to fuck around with a virus like avian flu. Bleach and water it is.

This is also useful for other surfaces that animals come in contact with. It’s something I’ve gotten used to doing from keeping small animals whose enclosures require careful, thorough, regular sanitization.

Observing.

Right now, Magni’s bunch and the other crow family look (and sound) healthy. Last year, Ruff had an issue with what was most likely a mite or fungal infection that caused them to lose most of the feathers around their neck, but this has resolved on its own. Boink had some damaged flight feathers that kept him from flying away, but he had enough safe places to hide, molted well, and has replaced the feathers he’d lost. Nobody has had any signs of avian pox or other serious illnesses. Dark, shiny feathers, clear eyes, clean butts, no weird lesions, and no weird noises.

It isn’t always easy to tell a sick animal at a glance, so this isn’t exactly reliable. Still, it’s a good idea to keep an eye on the overall health of wild animals that pass through spaces you frequent. A weird looking bird could be cause for concern.

Occasionally, I provide some diluted ACV in the water I put out. This isn’t something that’s helpful to do on a constant basis, and it must be very diluted. There’s some evidence that it can help birds combat various fungal and bacterial issues, but it is not a suitable treatment or preventative for serious illnesses.

Protecting myself.

The last step I’m taking is to take care of myself. That means masks and gloves when cleaning up, careful hand and face washing, and so forth. This is important whenever you have to be around any kind of biological mess, but masking is especially important when you’re dealing with dried feces or any other residue that may break down into airborne dust when you disturb it.

If you maintain a feeder for multiple species of birds, now might be a good time to either revise your strategy or go on a hiatus. Encouraging them to congregate makes it easier for sicknesses like avian flu to spread from one population to another, and more disease vectors mean more opportunities for mutations that could make the jump to humans and other animals. It’s always better to provide food in the form of native fruits, vegetables, and flowers than to provide a bird feeder, but that also isn’t always possible with every species. By taking on the task of providing food, water, and shelter to animals, one also takes on the responsibility of keeping them (and the people who may come in contact with them) as healthy as you feasibly can.

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Does AI have a place in witchcraft?

I discovered a YouTuber fairly recently, GrumpyOldCrone. I find her videos delightful — she’s talented and funny, and it’s refreshing to hear someone else complain about the same minor things that I find annoying, but don’t really have anyone else with which to gripe about them. She’s fun. I like her. You might, too.

Two months ago, she posted a video about AI’s increasing presence in witchcraft circles:

I watched it when it first came out, I agreed with it, and it recently popped up again for me. So, I thought I’d reiterate it here: I wholeheartedly agree that artificial intelligence doesn’t have a place in witchcraft.

Like, literally anywhere.

When it comes to spellcraft, why would the Universe heed something that nobody could be bothered to actually make? The process of performing a spell starts long before you’ve lit the candles, said the chants, et cetera. On top of that, a lot of thought, research, and history goes into developing a good magical working. A generative AI that pulls concepts from various internet spells (some of which are already highly questionable on their own) and mashes them together isn’t doing that. If it has any results at all, they’re likely to be unpredictable at best.

When it comes to herb lore, it’s a bad idea to trust a web-based hallucination machine to give advice. There are already problems with computer-generated foraging guides allegedly “written” by authors that have never existed. Of course, human error is also a thing. (As evidenced by that crystal worker who put an ore of mercury in a fire, and that lifestyle blogger who put out a cookbook that included a recipe for raw, chocolate-dipped morels.) This is why it’s important to read multiple sources, and to both vet and question what you read. This is getting increasingly difficult as it is as AI models begin to poison the well of their own information — if kludging together flawed information was a problem to begin with, it’s one that’s only getting worse as more computer-generated “guides” enter the info pool.
Have you ever seen the movie Multiplicity?
It’s like that, but with more poison.

Obtaining this information doesn’t have to be expensive or challenging, either. There are tons of Pagan, witchcraft, foraging, and nature crafting communities online, and in real life via Meetup groups. A library card and an app like Libby can give you access to tons of e-books. Scribd offers a free trial, during which you can straight-up download your choice of 3 books in PDF form. I have read some fascinating research on historical magical artifacts and techniques through Academia, for free. If you’re looking for instruction in a specific technique, Udemy often has sales where their courses are as low as $10 a pop.
The only challenge is that the seeker actually has to consume it and absorb this information themselves. It isn’t as easy as asking ChatGPT for instructions, then following them. Few worthwhile pursuits are.

I also want to take a second to bitch about the uptick in AI generated Pagan “art.” My objections here are twofold: For one, I hate that artists are having their actual work taken, mashed up, and squirted out of the digital equivalent of a Play-Doh Fun Factory as something with too many fingers and its legs on backward. I also hate that so much of it is legitimately ugly and bad. I’ve gone to marketplaces and seen a lot of Pagan-flavored AI slop, and it’s honestly really disheartening. I’m not exactly stoked about the proliferation of the same handful of resin mold and 3D printed designs either, but at least they require a modicum of effort (and have the right number of limbs).

Some things take time and work, and there isn’t really a way around that. The “industry disruption” phenomenon doesn’t work in every context, and this is one of them. AI is not making witchcraft more accessible; it’s providing something that poorly apes it. Even if it were to improve, it isn’t a substitute for learning from a human, or for community, or tradition, or genuine artfulness.

While there are some things that modern AI models can do and do much better than humans (accurately diagnosing certain medical conditions, for one, or processing phenomenally large amounts of data into a useful form and suggesting a course of action), witchcraft isn’t it.

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Today’s Plant a Flower Day!

March 12th is Plant a Flower Day. While the idea of dedicating a day to planting seeds goes back pretty far, this is a fairly recent innovation that likely originated in the US. A lot of the seasonal celebrations that I follow revolve around things like seed swaps, observing wild plants as they exit dormancy, and planting seeds as a form of sympathetic magic, but I also like observing days like this.

Of course, the best way to observe Plant a Flower Day is to select a native (or carefully-selected nativar) flower variety for your area, choose a spot in your yard, and conscientiously plant it. You’ll increase your local area’s biodiversity and provide a source of food and shelter for native insects (who really, really need it) and birds.

Bees on ornamental allium flowers.

If your garden is dedicated toward food rather than flowers, consider planting an edible species. Nasturtiums, for example, are beautiful, easy to grow, and taste nice. (You can even pickle the seeds and use them as a substitute for capers!) As far as native edible flowers go, violets are lovely, a very nice groundcover, edible, and there are a number of varieties native to various parts of North America. White wood sorrel produces very pretty little white flowers, and both the flowers and leaves have a tart taste that’s very nice in salads. Wherever you live, I can pretty much guarantee that there’s a native flower that can feed the birds, bees, butterflies, and you.

And, just because this is a secular observance doesn’t mean that you can’t work some magic into it. Planting seeds is a very common and easy type of sympathetic magic — as the seeds grow and flourish, so, too, should the intention with which you planted them. Get together with a partner, hold a handful of seeds, and visualize yourselves having a happy, peaceful relationship. Choose seeds of herbs associated with prosperity, picture your bank account growing, and plant them. The only real trick here is that you need to keep the seeds tended. If they die from neglect, you may soon find your intention following suit!

Even if you don’t have the space to dedicate to a flower garden, consider planting some seeds in a pot on a windowsill. It’s good for your mental and physical health, and it can help you bring the energy of spring into your home. Plus, if you choose an edible variety, it’s pretty much close-to-free food and decor in one.

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Larkspur Folklore and Magical Properties

Larkspurs are strikingly lovely flowers of the genera Delphinium and Consolida. They’re summer flowers that are possibly best known for being a) extremely deadly to most things, and b) the birth flower for the month of…
July.

Okay, okay, I know what you’re thinking, and I have a very good reason for writing about them now. Despite their birth month symbolism and all that, they’re actually flowers that need a bit of cold. Depending on your zone, that means sowing the seeds in either autumn or early spring so they can get a bit of a chill in. Lately, gardening stuff has been on my mind. Ergo, I figured now’d be a good time to write about…
Well.
Gardening stuff.

Like the lovely hellebore and lobelia, larkspur is poisonous. All parts of it. They’re actually a major contributor to cattle poisonings, to the point where farmers will delay grazing their cattle at high elevation pastures until summer, when the larkspur has chilled out a little and is slightly less likely to cause problems.[1]

The name Delphinium comes from the Greek word delphínion, meaning “dolphin.” According to Discorides, this is because of the shape of the flowers, which resemble dolphins if you kind of squint.[2] The English common name comes from the idea that their flowers resemble the feet of larks.

A close up shot of delphinium elatum.
I’m just gonna take his word for it. Photo by Zuzanna Musial on Pexels.com.

Mythologically, larkspur is a very interesting plant. In the story of Hyacinthos and Apollo, in which Apollo and Zephyros vie for the affections of Hyacinthos, Apollo ends up killing Hyacinthos either accidentally or in a fit of jealous rage. It’s usually said that Apollo turned Hyacinthos’ body into the hyacinth, but some scholars hold that the flower was the larkspur instead.[3]

Another story holds that the larkspur sprang up from Ajax’s blood. After the death of Achilles, Ajax and Odysseus vied for his armor. Athena supported the latter and drove Ajax mad. In his madness, he fell on his sword. Where his blood spilled, larkspur flowers grew.[4]

Larkspur appears to have somewhat limited medicinal and magical uses. As with many poisonous herbs, it’s associated with protection — the alkaloids in larkspur are cardiotoxic, cause respiratory arrest and digestive issues, and are generally irritating to skin. Just as they naturally repel most animals who’d eat them, planting them in one’s garden is said to repel evil. Some writers suggest using larkspur in protection baths, but, given its potential as a skin irritant, I would caution against this.

Some also cite larkspur as a love herb, but I haven’t done so. It does bloom during “wedding season,” and the flowers make beautiful bouquets, but most of its associations seem to spring from its toxicity and connection to warfare. Even the story of Hyacinthos and Apollo, where larkspur is essentially a symbol of Apollo’s love for Hyacinthos, ends in tragedy. Your mileage may vary, of course, but larkspur has never done much for me in love workings.

(Interestingly, its medicinal uses seem to primarily lie in its appearance. Multiple sources cite folk practices of looking either at larkspur (or through bunches of larkspur) to soothe tired eyes and guard against eye problems.)[5]

Even in Victorian floriography, larkspur is a bit… sketch. In general, larkspur is associated with lightness and levity. You know, the kind of stuff you’d expect from a pretty summer flower with tall blooms. However, this meaning depends heavily on its color — pink larkspur indicates a fickle nature, while purple represents haughtiness.[6]

The easiest, and probably most straightforward, way to use larkspur is to plant a native variety in your garden. Not only is this said to repel evil, but it’s a huge help to native bees, butterflies, songbirds, and hummingbirds.

Bumblebee and purple larkspur.

You could also crush the dried flowers into a powder (or salt) for protection and sprinkle it around whatever it is you wish to protect — your property, a room, et cetera. However, I caution against sprinkling it where a house pet may be able to step in it or get it on their fur, since ingesting it during grooming could cause serious harm.

The dried flowers are also a good addition to protection jars, sachets, or other container spells. Honestly, container spells are one of my favorite ways to use baneful herbs — they work, they’re easy, and I don’t have to worry about anyone trying to eat them.

Larkspurs are a beautiful summer plant, but they need cool seasons and humid summers to grow. Don’t wait until summer to add them to your garden. Sow them now, so they have time to stratify and establish themselves properly. You’ll be rewarded with their protection, tall spikes of colorful flowers, and an abundance of native pollinators.

  1. Poisonous Plant Research: Logan, UT. Larkspur (Delphinium spp.)
  2. Wikipedia, Delphinium
  3. Theoi.com, Hyakinthos
  4. Flower Database, Consolida ajacis
  5. Magical Plant Folklore: Larkspur, Periwinkle, and Wormwood
  6. Flower Meanings Dictionary from A to Z: the Secret Victorian Era Language of Flowers

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Ready for the Economic Blackout

Hello! By the time this is posted, it’ll be February 28th, the date of the US Economic Blackout put forth by The People’s Union USA. While a few key companies are the targets, participants are being asked to pause all discretionary spending for the day or, if that’s not possible, to only support small, local business.

My Handsome Assistant and I knew this was coming up, but it didn’t really take much to prepare. It mostly entailed making sure we have enough food to cook for the day. It’s a workday and we work remotely, so we’re probably just gonna do what we do on most Fridays — pasta, video games, guitar, and books. Maybe watch a horror movie or two.

I did end up deleting the Nextdoor app about this. It already wasn’t great about sending me notifications about things I actually wanted to see (messages sent directly to me, for example), but unfailingly showed me every absolutely dipshit hot take about the blackout and I was a hair’s breadth from saying something actionable. I’m not trying to go to jail for fistfighting some pudding-faced guy named Duke in my front yard over his undying devotion to Amazon.
That’s just no way to spend a weekend.

A fangy-toothed cat sleeping upside down.
I have no idea what image would be appropriate for this sort of post, but all of the blogging guides say I need to have one. So, here’s a sleepy chunk.

My Handsome Assistant and I have also been paring back our spending in general already, partially because it’s become increasingly difficult to shop in good conscience, partially to prepare in case someone ends up out of work, and partially to avoid “lifestyle creep.” It’s been a whole Thing of deleting social media accounts, cancelling various subscriptions, and migrating to providers that are somewhat less objectionable. Inconvenient, yes, but I’m feeling pretty optimistic about it.
Even if I wasn’t, it’s just the kind of spite that I gleefully latch onto on like a starving lamprey, so I’m gonna feel all warm and fuzzy inside either way.

I’m not a minimalist by any means, though I fully support those who feel happy and fulfilled with that lifestyle. I do enjoy the challenge of No Buys, mainly because I really like developing new skills (and learning to make things is something that I feel like everyone should get more of). This year, I’m doing a clothing No Buy. I have items I actually do need, so I’m making an allowance for limited secondhand items like jeans and boots, but everything else I have to make (or repair, dye, etc.) myself. I have one or two very specific niche items that have been on my list since last year, and they’re handmade from small businesses, so they’re the only new articles that I may allow myself when the time comes. Otherwise, if I want something that badly, I’ve gotta learn the skills necessary to make it.

I want to do a No Buy for house things in general, but we’re moving a bunch of stuff around and have a whole other room to furnish into usability, and not enough other furniture to do so. So, there’s probably a bunch of thrift store hunting and scraping Buy/Sell/Trade listings in our future until that’s handled.

I’m also Project Panning all of my personal care items, mainly because I have a small bathroom and want to keep products to a minimum. (To be fair, my Handsome Assistant is a bit more of an offender here than I am. The man is absolutely Johnny Bravo about his hair.) This’ll let me see what I actually need, what’s redundant, and what manufacturers produce the products I use the most often. For example, I’ve found that I like Narayan Gel better than Tiger Balm.
I’m also not sure how to feel about the fact that I’ve become the kind of person who has strong opinions about muscle rub.

Even if you aren’t able to pause all of your spending today, there are things you can do to make your impact felt. You matter, and so do the goods and services you consume. The more you actively try to support small, local businesses, the more of your money stays in your community, supporting things that directly impact your daily life. Megacorps are cheap and convenient, but this is subsidized by the exploitation of their workers and suppliers. Bezos and the Waltons don’t need any more of your money, but your community does.

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Lobelia Folklore and Magical Properties

Every time I read the word “lobelia,” I always hear it in the voices of those girls from Lobelia Girls’ Academy from Ouran High School Host Club.

It’s a very specific kind of brain rot. Anyway.

The other day, during the bone walk, we came across some Indian tobacco (Lobelia inflata) in a meadow. It was a striking looking plant, with tall flower spikes covered in things that looked almost like the tiny, dried flower “skulls” of the snapdragon plant. So, I thought now might be a good time to go into the various folklore, (very limited) medicinal, and magical uses of this very intriguing plant.

Lobelia Magical Uses, Folklore, and Medicinal History

Blossoming Lobelia erinus, with small blue flowers.
Lobelia erinus, from southern Africa. Photo by Aljona Ovtšinnikova on Pexels.com

The genus Lobelia is made up of a lot of plants with some very disparate characteristics. It’s not considered a very useful designation in a taxonomic sense. It’s very paraphyletic, meaning that it consists of lobelia’s most recent common ancestor and some (but not all) of its descendants. Lobelia species are also highly variable. There’s the giant lobelia of Tanzania, Lobelia deckenii, which is eaten by hyraxes and pollinated by birds. Then there’s Lobelia inflata, Indian tobacco, which is pollinated by bees and doesn’t appear to be eaten by much of anything. For the purposes of this post, I’d like to focus on the American lobelias.

In European-based folk magic, lobelia is often treated as a baneful herb — according to the (lovely, but now-defunct) Pooka Pages, it’s an herb that expresses hatred, where other baneful herbs might express dislike or anger. Its action is efficient, effective, and nasty, but seldom predictable.

Lobelia inflata, also known as Indian tobacco or puke weed, is native to eastern North America. Traditionally, it was an entheogen and, as the name “puke weed” suggests, an emetic. It was also used for skin and respiratory disorders. Consuming lobelia can lead to a lot of adverse effects, however, up to and including death. Its therapeutic index is narrow, and the medicinally helpful dose is very close to the potentially deadly one. As a result, it shouldn’t be used outside of the guidance and close supervision of a trained herbal medicine practitioner or an expert in its ceremonial use.

A stalk of Lobelia siphilitica, with periwinkle blue flowers.
Lobelia siphilitica.

Lobelia siphilitica, or great lobelia, has an absolutely fascinating mechanism for pollination. (Seriously, it’s so cool.) It has three petals that are fused into a kind of landing pad for bees. When a bee lands that is just heavy enough, these petals bend downward as it wiggles its way toward the nectar. This triggers the plant’s stigma to also move downward, wiping along the bee’s back and picking up pollen granules.

Some lobelia species contain a compound called lobeline. This is a nicotine receptor agonist, meaning that it triggers nicotine receptors in the body. For this reason, some species have been used as a way to quit tobacco use. Refined lobeline has even been sold as a commercial anti-smoking aid and has been researched as a potential treatment for other addictions.

Since lobelia has been used as an entheogen, it’s sometimes used (preferably not internally) as an aid to visions and prophetic dreaming. In these cases, the dried leaves are typically added to sachets or dream pillows, or otherwise placed near the user’s bedside.

Using Lobelia

If you live in lobelia’s native range, it’s a great plant for native bees. Look for a species that’s endemic to where you live, and you won’t have to do much to care for it. Your local ecosystem will thank you.

Since lobelia can be rather dangerous when used improperly, I don’t recommend taking it internally despite its history of use as a medicinal herb. As I mentioned previously, the line between “helpful” and “possibly deadly” is very thin, and something that should only be navigated by someone who has been highly trained in its use.

That aside, there’s no reason not to include lobelia in formulas to repel or curse. Add the dried flowers to powders to drive someone away, for example, or include a dish of the dried leaves or flowers in spells that target an enemy. (Not necessarily a rival — as I also mentioned above, this is an herb for hatred. Not one you’d reach for just to outshine someone, express dislike, or exercise your anger.)

You can also include lobelia in jars or pouches for visionary work. While it’s also sometimes suggested to place the dried leaves under your pillow or beside your bed, it’s important to exercise caution here — you really don’t want to place it anywhere where a curious pet or child might ingest it. For that reason, I recommend using lobelia in container spells where the risk of ingestion is minimal.

Lobelia is an interesting, powerful herb that demands respect. On one hand, it’s an herb used for hatred and hexing. On the other, it’s an ally for those seeking prophetic dreams or visions. If you treat it well, and keep its unpredictable nature in mind, it can be a very helpful, fascinating friend.

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Bones, Beavers, and Vegan Tacos.

This past Saturday, my Handsome Assistant, some friends, and I went on a bone walk. This was organized by a friend in the Druidry group of which I’m a part, and it’s pretty much exactly what it sounds like — a walk through an area where it’s common to find bones.

Late winter/early spring is the best time for this, because winter is harsh on wild things and this is when the snow melts and uncovers the earth again. It’s a meditation on mortality and privilege; we are fortunate to have access to the things we need to easily survive winter, but this isn’t universally true. And, regardless of how true it is, none of us will live forever. It’s kind of an antidote to modern western society’s extreme refusal to acknowledge the more visceral aspects of our own mortality.

(I’ll give you an example. When my grandmother passed away, she was sleeping in bed beside my grandfather. Her body was picked up, cleaned, preserved, and covered in makeup and a wig. Her cheeks were stuffed with cotton to hide the way cancer had eaten her away. Her eyelids were pulled over barbed plastic forms to make her look like she was sleeping. We filed in during the wake to see her, and she was carted off to her grave by unseen hands. Only, it wasn’t her grave exactly — she was brought to a kind of staging area, with her coffin set atop a white rectangular platform. There was a eulogy, the press of a button, and a mechanical whirr as the coffin descended into the platform. It was all very neat and methodical, with as little involvement from the bereaved as possible. Just lots of preservatives, makeup, and little tricks to maintain the illusion of life, and a closed casket gently lowering into a sterile, white box.

If this is the closest we come to experiencing mortality before going through our own, no wonder we’re so fucking weird about it.)

The bone walk itself was a lot of fun. We didn’t find many bones, mostly some vacant snail shells. The area we walked was a very diverse meadow, with horse nettle, lobelia (I even snuck some leftover lobelia seeds), native grasses, and more plants than I could possibly identify, so there were signs from an abundance of wild things. Shed feathers. Coyote scat, packed with rodent and rabbit fur until it looked almost like owl pellets. Tufts of winter coat from horses, where they’d rubbed against a fence. The stumps of trees, whittled to a pencil point by beaver teeth. Droppings from rabbits, deer, and horses. It was the traces of a healthy, vibrant population.

We chatted about all kinds of things, mortality-adjacent and non. Books. Music. The population of crows that visits here. The plants we saw. I haven’t been able to see anyone since late autumn, so it was nice to just catch up and spend time together.

We also talked about the idea of a burial forest, where everyone could be buried beneath a tree. One friend said they wanted to be buried beneath an apple tree, which would continue to feed people in a somewhat macabre fashion. I said I wanted to be buried under a bald cypress, so it’d grow cypress knees. Then I could continue to be a pain in the ass in death as I am in life.

(Alternatively, I want to go to a body farm. Then I want my picked-clean skeleton recovered, well-scrubbed, and adorned with thrift store junk jewelry. Then I want to be propped up on a marble throne in a mausoleum to confuse the shit out of anthropologists far into the future.)

Once we’d finished the bone walk, my Handsome Assistant and I had to go. (We had a rather long drive back, and I was in a hurry to get to my favorite stationery store before it closed because it would probably be my only opportunity to pick up Colorverse’s exceeding gorgeous 2025 ink, Blue Green Snake, without having to order it online.)

(I got the one with blue purple shimmer.)

We stopped at a placed called Kelley Farm Kitchen on the way back. We’d never been — didn’t know anything about it, really, but it said it was “100% Vegan.” I had some doubts when I looked at the creamy sauces and cheesy dishes on their menu, but they were not kidding.

My Handsome Assistant got a seitan cheesesteak and a little bit of macaroni and cheese (well, “cheese”), which were both delicious. I was debating getting the same, but I went with the pinto bean and avocado tacos instead, and you guys.

They were amazing. Just a little heat. Flavorful. Satisfying. The tortillas were soft, but with just a bit of crispiness on the outside. The grated carrots were a cool, sweet counterpoint to the salt and heat of the other ingredients. And the sauce!

For serious, I’d gladly make the trip just to get more tacos.

This was a small adventure, but delightful. I’m glad that the thought of mortality doesn’t strike the same fear in me that it did years ago. I’m grateful that I got to see and socialize with my friends. I’m happy to spend time in a beautiful, biodiverse place. I’m glad for delicious food, good conversation, and beautiful ink.

(Seriously, it’s so pretty.)

Neodruidry · Witchcraft

Can you use birthday candles for magic?

I love candle magic, but I don’t do it quite as often as I’d like for one simple reason: It usually requires letting a candle burn completely, ideally uninterrupted, and who’s got that kind of time? There are options for getting around this, of course, but a lot of them are less than ideal. If only there was something smaller, that could burn more quickly. Something like… oh, I don’t know. A birthday candle.
There’s gotta be some kind of birthday candle witchcraft out there, right?

Burning candles against white textile.
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So, you’ve got a candle spell to work, and one big problem — you can’t just leave it burning while you go on about life. There are some suggestions in old books, things like placing the candle in a cauldron or bathtub with an inch or two of water in it, so it’ll be immediately doused if it falls over. As someone who grew up with a firefighter, however, these suggestions make my teeth itch.

Fortunately, there’re better options out there than “stick a candle in your bathtub and hope for the best.” If you absolutely have to, you can snuff a candle and re-light it when you’re able to pay more attention to it. You might even be able to work this into your spell itself, by performing it every night for a series of nights and only burning a little of the candle at a time.

The other option, of course, is to use a really tiny candle.

There’s nothing wrong with using birthday candles in spells. They pack much of the same characteristics of full-sized candles (the element of Fire, the act of burning, the presence of a flame, the wax and wick being consumed) in a tiny package. There are a couple of things to consider before swapping all of your pillars, jars, and chime candles for a package of birthday candles, though.

Birthday candles are little and don’t take long to burn completely. When time is of the essence, or you can’t afford to take your eyes off of a candle for even a second (hello, friends with children or pets), then you need something that can work quickly.

That aside, there’s another reason why you might want to try using birthday candles: portability.

I have a crane bag. For Druids/Neodruids, this is a container of tools for field work, power objects, and/or everything that you might need for performing a ritual at any time, in any place. I’ve got tiny incense sticks, small statues, stones, bits of wood, airline-sized bottles of whiskey, a small bowl, a tiny bell, a rattle, etc. Birthday candles fit nicely here, and I don’t have to worry about disposing of a plastic or aluminum cup like I would with a tea light.

They’re inexpensive

Birthday candles are cheap and plentiful. You can find them in any grocery store, in decently sized packs that should last you for a while. Honestly, you’ve probably already got some in a junk drawer or the back of a cabinet in your kitchen right now.

In cultures that celebrate birthdays with cake and candles, there’s a tiny ritual associated with their use. The candles are placed on the cake, one for every year of the recipient’s age, and lit. The recipient closes their eyes, makes a wish, and tries to blow out all of the candles in one breath.

Cupcakes on a table with lighted candles and balloons.
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Honestly, if you mention birthday candles to anyone in the US, it’s likely that one of the first things they’ll think of is making a wish. Sure, it’s a cute little ritual primarily targeted at kids. It’s still a ritual, though. It’s still a positive association between birthday candles and wishes.

This is something that other candles don’t really have. Can you imagine parking an eight-inch-tall pillar candle in the middle of a sheet cake? Eleven or twelve tea lights? A massive jar of something labeled “Sun Dried Cotton”?

Depending on your particular birthday candle witchcraft goals, that connection with wishes is something you can tap into.

They’re easy to clean up

As a candle burns, the wax turns to liquid and is carried up the wick to be used as fuel for the flame. This process is more efficient for some candles and some types of wax than it is for others. Scented candles, for example, produce a lot of liquid wax to let the fragrance dissipate. Taper candles are used primarily for light, not scent, so they have a different shape and generally don’t produce much messy liquid wax. Birthday candles are only supposed to burn as long as it takes to blow them out, so they burn pretty neatly. Maybe a drop or two of dripped wax, if that.

If you’re not a fan of either cleaning old wax out of your candle holders, or digging holes to bury the remains of spell candles, birthday candles offer easy clean up and disposal.

The small size of a birthday candle doesn’t give you a whole lot of real estate for inscribing sigils, words, etc. If you have a particularly steady hand, you may be able to do something with the tip of a straight pin or sewing needle. Otherwise, if your spell calls for inscribing a candle with something, skip the birthday candle witchcraft and go for a chime, votive, or even pillar instead.

Unlike other candles, birthday candles are meant to go out easily. This can be a pain if you’ve got a situation that makes it tough to keep a candle lit. A stray breeze, whether from the outdoors or sudden movement, can leave you scrambling to re-light your candle mid-spell. It’s a major concentration breaker, if nothing else.

Some spells call for snuffing a re-lighting a candle, generally over a period of several days. Taper, knob, or pillar candles are good for this. Birthday candles, not so much. Can you imagine having to mark a tiny birthday candle into seven equal segments, and burn one single segment each night for a week? By the time you got it lit, you’d need to immediately snuff it again.

Birthday candle holders usually come in the form of either those little plastic or metal cups with a spike on the bottom, or an entire cake. Neither of these are particularly ideal when you only need to burn one candle, on a flat surface.

If you have trouble figuring out how to securely set up a birthday candle, get yourself a basic glass votive or tealight cup, and a handful or two of sand. Poke the birthday candle into the sand, and you should be good to go. If any of the melted wax gets on the sand, it’s easy to scoop it out and bury or otherwise dispose of it along with any other remains of your birthday candle witchcraft.

Like I said, I love candle magic. I also have three cats and the attention span of a brine shrimp, and I need candles that I can easily travel with. For me, birthday candles are a valuable and useful magical tool.

life

Bodies are kind of a scam, tbh.

I will never cease to be simultaneously baffled, amused, and horrified by the sheer number of tiny, pointless ways that the human body can go wrong.

I don’t mean cancer or anything that serious. Just tiny things, like hitting your late twenties and discovering that your brain is no longer able to regulate its own cerebrospinal fluid. Or going to sleep and waking up with a ruptured disc in your spine. Or, as I recently discovered, calmly crocheting on your couch and having part of your eyeball fall apart.

Person with blue and brown partial heterochromia.
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It’s fine. (Really.)
It sounds much worse than it is.
It seemed much worse than it is when it happened — a sudden flashing of light around the edges of my vision, and the appearance of a blobby, dark-bordered circle in the middle. No pain. No blindness. Not even blurriness. Just something quite a bit stranger than the usual slate of pseudotumor-related optical batshittery to which I’ve become accustomed.

It’s a posterior vitreous detachment, and it’s what happens when your ocular jellies kind of pull away from their attendant structures. The flashes of light happen because the retina has no receptors for pain, and the sagging vitreous jelly pulls on stuff it shouldn’t. The little blobby circle is a shadow cast on the retina from the detached bit.
It’s gross, it’s weird, and it’s also bizarrely… harmless?

I mean, it isn’t ideal, but it’s also something that just kind of happens to people. I’ve read that it’s more common in older people, but not exactly uncommon in younger people. My history of papilledema may make me more susceptible, since nothing inside my eye it shaped the way it ought to be anymore to begin with. It isn’t even caused by in injury, the way a detached retina can be. It’s just one of many ways your body can decide to be uncooperative.

And, as with so many other small, horrifying annoyances, there’s not really much to be done. It’s just kind of like that now and will remain so for the next few months until a) my brain retrains itself to ignore it, and/or b) the stringier bits settle to the bottom of my eye. There’s a pretty high likelihood that I’ll develop a retina tear or detachment at some point, but, until that happens… eh.

I can’t say I’m happy about it, but it could be a lot worse.

Eyes were a terrible idea.
Mortal existence is a scam.